note to self

You have to stand up straight she said
because a woman's heart will lean toward a man
and a man's heart will lean toward work.
So you have to work to stand up straight in God
and who He made you to be.

my friends are talented and adorable

and getting married!!

(I just had to share.)

Now that Maybe is in my life, my weekends are too short but exhausting. The weeks are too long, but they give me time to rest (though life beyond him does continue). Getting to know someone(who you know, but don't Know), as an adult, on this level, is exciting, risky, and tiring - but worth it.

Sunday night I watched The Namesake with some girlfriends from church. I haven't cried through an entire movie in a while, but it was kind of cathartic. As a recently self-accepted crier, it is sometimes nice to sit in the dark with people you trust and love and just cry for the characters and cry for yourself. As a "second-generationer" I related a lot to the film. There was one scene where the family is making their way through a packed train station in India and they were just clinging to each other. There was a night in China when the Ngs looked a lot like that as we were trying to navigate through a packed train station. I cried for the misunderstanding, sacrifice, healing, and growth that happens across generational lines, especially among immigrant families. The book was great and the film left me feeling shell-shocked. So, if that description appeals to you, SEE IT!! (and can Mira Nair really do wrong?)

My Fairy Princesses

Forgot to share a cute story.

Saturday I was leaving a church BBQ. Olivia (8) and Sydney (4) stop me as I'm leaving. They are dressed head to toe in fairy-princess costumes. They even have magic wands.

Sydney: Wait! Do you want to make a wish or do you want to save it for later?
Me: OH! Ummmm... I'll take one now.
Olivia: Ok, close your eyes and make the wish.
Me: Ok. I..... wish that I will get REALLY good sleep tonight.
(Sydney and Olivia wave their wands)
Olivia: (handing me a piece of metallic confetti) This is so your wish comes true. Also, it is a coupon for another wish.
Me: Thanks girls!
Girls: BYE!!!

Sydney to Olivia: (running off) My mom had the SAME WISH!!!!

pictures

1. Self explanatory...

2. Our kids.. being kids...

3. My new nephew, Pepinot Lee

two things

"I don't have a microwave, but I do have a clock that occasionally cooks shit."

So "Maybe" (as we will call him) is a musician. And in an effort to improve my musical taste, he lent me several CDs, among them a Comedy Central recording of the late comedian Mitch Hedberg. This guy is random funny. You really gotta listen to his delivery though because that is one of the unique things about him. That is my plug.

Now, I have a confession to make. Sometimes when I am bored or trying to procrastinate I will browse a particular wedding website. Women write in with different questions, to show off their hand made invitations, ask for bridesmaid dress pointers, etc. This interests me because I have been averaging about one wedding a year, and I like to have advice/ideas for my friends. Also, I'm kind of into crafts. But mainly, I am a girl, and many girls like to think about weddings. Anyways, the point is that yesterday I was browsing said website and a woman wrote in asking if she should spend $995 on a pearl and diamond bracelet to wear at her wedding. I wanted to vomit. I started to write a comment about feeding and sheltering people, but then I realized that I was being judgmental and that weddings are meant to be an extravagance in some shape or form. Thankfully, most other brides to be were counseling her NOT to buy it.

I don't really have a concluding comment to this confession.

hello.

I'm around. I'm sick, but that's ok. I'm kind of dating? Creepy muchacho hasn't been around for 16 days. Word at the complex is that he got in a fight down the street. The weather is warm. I'm writing again. Going to a concert on Friday. I'm a horrible dancer. Work is busy. Mom mom thinks that there should be term limits of 4 years now and that Bush had some "bad advice". I think this is interesting.

Maybe

Normally I would never put this kind of thing on my blog, but considering my last post, I couldn't resist.

A good guy has made a move. He isn't who I had hoped would make a move, but he IS a good guy, maybe even a great one. He wasn't even really on my radar until Saturday when I saw him after half a year of not seeing him. I've known him for more than 10 years, so if you think about it, and if anything comes of it, that is a long time to be waiting. Thankfully, to my awareness, I haven't been waiting.

Still, in a way, it feels like an answered prayer.

We shall see. I may not write on this again.